I stare uhp into the obliviosus && renounced sky. The sun beating down into my emerald blue eyes. I think about him && he thinks about me. I think about all that he has done for me. Given for me. Then I think about my sins. My unforgiving sins that burn through his heart. Tearing tears out of his eyes. Promising again && again to start over. Clean slate. Then I go right back again. Sitting back in that same spot. Thinking about him. Him thinking about me. Both of us thinking about my sins. I keep going in circles with this. Do I really want to burn in an everlasting flame while the red demon laughs at me. Should this be my penalty??? Is it really the same as living forever && ever in the same body. Same mind. Same spirit having to deal with the guilt of the lives I stole, the hearts I broke, && the lies I told. To me. That would be an everlasting punishment. Not having to live in this world with the wrongs I have done && the treacheries I have committed would be a gift that I am willing to except.
I sit. Again today and stare. Stare && think of him. He stares back. Stares back && thinks of me. We cry. Both of us. We are torn apart from love with this endless circle I throw us into.